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  Peter Mabey May 17, 2025 13:44

  The New Self” – Spoken Version for Reading Aloud

  There was a time I opened my eyes each morning...
  and cursed the light.

  Now, I rise and thank it —
  not because life is easy,
  but because I’m still here.

  And that... means something.

  I’ve lived in the shadows for most of my life —
  45 years chasing numbness,
  chasing belonging,
  losing myself in smoke... and silence.

  I lost a lung.
  Lost years.
  Lost love.

  I slept on cold pavement and colder memories.
  I nearly chose the end — more than once.

  But something bigger than me whispered:
  “Not yet.”

  I know now...
  That survival was never the end of the story.
  It was the doorway into purpose.

  (Let this truth settle. Then continue.)

  Today, I don’t run from my past.
  I walk alongside it —
  like an old companion.

  My wounds don’t shame me —
  they shape me.

  They taught me the language of suffering.
  Now, I use that language to speak hope
  into people still learning how to breathe again.

  My name is Peter Mabey.
  They call me Beamer —
  and I finally understand why.

  My mother was a lighthouse keeper on Partridge Island.
  She battled her demons.
  But even from a thousand miles away,
  her light reached me.

  She became my symbol of grace —
  flawed, human, and still radiant.

  Now, I stand where she once stood:
  not above the waves,
  but in them —
  with those still trying to stay afloat.

  And my father...
  He didn’t know how to show love the way I needed.
  He was a hard man, forged in a hard world.
  But he taught me grit.
  He taught me how to survive.

  He built with his hands what he couldn’t build with his heart —
  and somewhere in that,
  he gave me the strength to build myself back.

  I’ve learned:
  Redemption doesn’t erase the past.
  It reclaims it.

  Every failure, every cell, every overdose —
  wasn’t the end.
  It was preparation.

  For empathy.
  For presence.
  For truth.

  I no longer chase belonging.
  I embody it.

  I carry it into rooms where shame lingers.
  Into hearts that feel forgotten.

  I don’t pretend to have all the answers —
  I just make sure no one has to ask the questions alone.

  And so, I make this commitment —
  to myself...
  and to those I serve:

  I commit to doing the deep inner work,
  so I can show up whole for others.

  I commit to saying what I mean —
  with kindness,
  with courage,
  with clarity.

  I commit to honoring joy, beauty, and pleasure —
  not as luxuries,
  but as sacred acts of healing.

  I commit to grounding my work in purpose,
  not performance.

  I commit to making my life —
  and every act of support —
  a reflection of love, integrity, and humanity.

  This... is how I choose to live.

  With truth in my words,
  With care in my hands,
  And with fire in my soul.

  I don’t support others because I’ve reached the mountaintop.
  I support them because I know what it’s like...
  to be lost in the valley.

  And I believe, with everything in me:
  None of us were ever meant to walk through darkness alone.
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  Peter Mabey May 17, 2025 13:41

  https://docs.google.com/document/d/1_T86zgV7B48KbOHGY9LO7-kdH2NSrCG...

  

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  Peter Mabey May 17, 2025 10:25

  Good Day 14 of my little grow. 6 out of 7 have sprouted. Stay tuned. one 4L Kracky system and one 15L Kracky system.Thanks to John, who taught me how to start growing my nutrisant foods.

  
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  Peter Mabey May 12, 2025 17:15

  Peter Mabey’s Manifesto

  Standing at the Lighthouse — A Life Guided by Hope and Responsibility

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  I stand as a light — not to lead, but to shine. I am Peter Mabey. My path as a peer supporter is grounded in lived experience and lifted by belief — in people, in growth, in the quiet strength we all carry.

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  My Core Beliefs

  • Hope is the anchor. I believe hope is not passive — it’s a practice. It’s choosing to believe in change, even when the past says otherwise. Hope is the light in the Lighthouse, and I keep it lit.

  • Personal Responsibility is empowerment. I take ownership of my choices, my healing, and my presence. Responsibility is not blame — it’s the first act of self-respect.

  • Education is liberation. I seek to understand myself and the world. I believe that learning — emotional, practical, spiritual — is essential to growth and freedom.

  • Self-Advocacy is survival and dignity. I speak up for myself and encourage others to find their voice. Being heard is not a privilege — it’s a right.

  • Support and Spiritual Life go hand in hand. I draw strength from connection — with others and with something greater than myself. My spiritual life keeps me rooted in purpose, presence, and peace.

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  My Commitment as a BEAMER

  🕯 Be a Light – I will reflect hope and remind others of their inner resilience. 🕯 Educate & Empower – I will share tools, knowledge, and support for self-advocacy and growth.
  🕯 Act with Integrity – I will take responsibility for how I show up, and hold space with honesty and care.
  🕯 Make Room for Spirit – I will honour the spiritual journey — mine and others’ — with respect and openness.
  🕯 Stand for Community – I will never forget that we heal together. No one is beyond support or hope.

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  The Lighthouse doesn’t fix the storm — it offers direction through it. This is who I am.
  This is how I serve.
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  Peter Mabey May 8, 2025 16:27

  https://youtu.be/YQHsXMglC9A?si=IojuJwnyFbNhvjdV
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  Peter Mabey May 2, 2025 16:03

  https://youtu.be/O8-su9qeIDg?si=OhIxL67kkm7-GAuT
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  Peter Mabey May 2, 2025 14:09

  https://www.youtube.com/live/AeUfPprJcvI?si=qzQBoGk2UMIXXRNz
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  Peter Mabey April 26, 2025 22:12

  
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    Peter Mabey > Peter Mabey April 26, 2025 22:37

    Just for today, I will mindfully enjoy the ride.
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  Peter Mabey April 20, 2025 17:15

  Good afternoon, my dear friends, Just touching base and sharing a little message, you are enough and you have value just as you are.

  

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